I realized recently what I do with my blog. I post on the days when ‘life is good’ or I have an update on my physical issues. On the days when I am struggling with something, I just avoid writing here or I post quotes from others. Is that called focusing on the positive, avoiding real issues or wanting to put a ‘good face’ on?
I have had a few tough days … I’m
- tired of the cast,
- tired of the restrictions it imposes on me,
- tired of having my physical body dictate my life and scared that it always will.
Two years ago I was running on the beach in CA, today I am sitting in a recliner in PA.
- tired of “being thankful that I am alive and that I have my leg”
- I want my old body back.
Though I know it is true … I question the ‘God is in control’ thing and ‘Everything will work out for good’. It is not feeling like that today. Not just with myself, but everyone has struggles … this life is hard and I am tired of struggles.